3、同病相怜 ... 刚重生就遇到考试，杨简忙完这段时间，赶忙去

3、同病相怜 ...


刚重生就遇到考试，杨简忙完这段时间，赶忙去银行的自动取款机处查账户余额。
他这个时候其实不算贫穷，以后的那些日子也都算不上，开始有父母的资助，后来有工作收入，只是在最后的三个月里失去生活来源以后迅速花光所有的积蓄，才突然体会到潦倒的感觉。
无论如何，他得想办法改变未来。
第一个学期即将结束，银行卡里的生活费所剩无几，杨简暗暗决定，下学期绝对要改变这种消费习惯。他收好钱包走在回宿舍的路上，正在想着怎样开源节流，电话突然响了。杨简拿起那只白屏黑字，只有电话和短信功能的手机，看到上面熟悉又陌生的两个字。
妈妈。
杨简的心情十分复杂。
当初他小心翼翼地绕开素来严厉的父亲，只对母亲先说自己不喜欢女人不打算结婚，不料却遭到意外激烈的反对。
他是家中独子，原以为无论做错什么都会得到原谅的，殊不知一切都是假象。他以为就算不悦也能与他心平气和交谈的母亲，歇斯底里地把椅子用力砸在他的身上，然后拿起摔断的椅子腿不住抽打他的胳膊和后背。他躲开，握住了那块木条，心中有愧疚，却没有开口道歉。这不是道歉能解决的事情，他得让她接受现实。
她却坐着地板上大哭起来，哭声引来了父亲，不分青红皂白便给了他一个耳光。
“你做了什么，把你妈妈气成这样？”
杨简已经无路可退，只好据实回答，“爸，我是同性恋，我没办法结婚害一个女人一辈子，你们不要逼我。”
父亲半晌没有说话，扶起母亲，一起转身向门口走去。
杨简心中一阵惶恐，小声叫了句，“爸，妈。”
“我们就当什么都没有听到。”父亲的声音坚硬而冷漠，母亲已不再看他一眼。他们引以为傲的儿子，却成为他们人生中最大的耻辱，他们无法原谅。
“可是这都是真的。”杨简望着父母蹒跚的背影和花白的头发，有些绝望地说。
父亲霍然转过头，“我们有逼过你吗？这是你在逼我们！”
“如果你执意要做同性恋，便不要再进这个家门。”母亲突然抬起头，强势地看着他的眼睛。
杨简一时不及反应，怔怔看过去。
“早知如此，当初就不该把你生下来。”
最后说出这句话的，是母亲。
母亲从来都是好强要面子的人，曾经为了事业不想那么早要小孩，却还是在各方劝说下生下杨简。杨简小学各科的满分，中学竞赛得到的奖，高考考进的重点大学，毕业后高薪的工作，都是她在亲朋好友面前炫耀的资本。
杨简也终于认识到，自己就像一个价值连城的花瓶，如果有裂痕不值钱了，也就失去了被珍爱和保护的资格。
这就是现实。
时隔多年又接到母亲的电话，杨简一时不知该怎样面对。他如今不过十七岁，还是个不谙世事的大学新生。沉溺于网络荒疏学业也不是什么太大的错误，只要不过分到需要降级的程度，家人是不会知道，也不会过问的。
他终于接通电话。
“考试怎么样啊？什么时候放假回家？”母亲喋喋不休的声音听起来很是亲切。
杨简对此适应了几秒钟，想了想还是回答，“考试还好，考完试暂时不回家了，老师介绍了一份兼职，不好推的。”
对面声音停顿片刻，又说“你什么时候开始做兼职了？缺钱吗？”
杨简楞了一下，忙回答，“不缺，就是被老师看中了。”
“什么工作啊？”
“家教。”
“好吧，做完了就早点回来，别一个人在外面玩疯了。”
“知道了。”
杨简挂机后长出一口气，大冬天的脑门竟然一层冷汗。他哪里有什么老师推荐，都是在网上找的兼职，看着那些放寒假的中小学生写作业而已。价格虽然便宜，毕竟有进账，况且他还没有做好回家的心理准备。
宿舍楼的人都走得差不多了，楼道里几乎见不到人，显得冷冷清清的。
杨简正要找钥匙，忽然对面走过来一个人，也拿着钥匙在开隔壁宿舍的门。杨简不由多看了一眼，惊讶道，“吴苏华？你不是搬出去了么？”
吴苏华也没有露出做贼心虚的表情，坦然回答，“来搬东西。”
杨简不好意思地笑笑，“我没有其他意思，就是随口一说。”
吴苏华偏过头来，也对他微微一笑。
在杨简意识到自己也是同类时，吴苏华已经很少出现在同学面前了，所以杨简对他的印象并不深刻。而此时，他却觉得他并不是难相处的人。吴苏华的身形修长，比他略高一些，白净的脸上一颗青春痘都没有，头发金灿灿的十分显眼，在这样寒冷的冬天里让人感觉很温暖似的。
不自觉地，杨简已打量了他很久。
“怎么，好奇？”吴苏华大方地微笑看着他。
“啊，不是。”杨简顿时有些慌乱，他不想这么早地暴露自己，甚至还幻想着也许自己能不走这条路。
“我只是想，你需不需要帮忙。”他随便找了个借口。
吴苏华倒是不客气，“好啊，正好东西比较多。”
杨简不得不跟着他走进宿舍，看到里面的景象不由大吃一惊。有三张床被整理得干干净净，木板上面连床垫都收起来了，屋内漂浮着一股刺鼻的消毒水味，就算在女生宿舍里，都难得看到这样的。
吴苏华故作轻松地笑笑，“我搬走，他们也用不着这样了。”
另外一张床显然是吴苏华的，虽然也很整齐，上面却落着一层灰尘，看得出已经很久没有被使用过。
“杨简，谢谢你。”他突然说。
杨简瞬间反应过来，他是在感谢自己没有嫌弃他。无论何时，他们这样的人都是无法坦诚生存在阳光下的。
“吴苏华，虽然这样问有些唐突，可是我实在想不通，你好像并没有跟谁交往，那么你的事情到底是怎样传开的呢？”
吴苏华没有料到他这个问题，楞了一下，却转头看着他眯眼一笑。
杨简被他看得有些心惊，连忙移开眼神。
“你怕我？”吴苏华自嘲般轻笑着说。
“没有。”杨简现在后悔死了自己的多管闲事。
吴苏华不置可否地笑了笑，“我真的没病，你们都不用怕的。”
这句话听起来十分心酸，杨简用力地摇摇头，一时间也说不出什么安慰的话。
“你不是好奇为什么我的事情会被传得沸沸扬扬吗？我可以告诉你，因为我对崔云表白，他视之为奇耻大辱。”吴苏华淡淡说着。
“是他大肆宣扬？”杨简震惊地看着他，崔云看起来那么优秀，不像是会做出这样的事情的人。
“这也不能怪他，”吴苏华苦笑着说，“刚来大学时，他与我的关系最好，是真的把我当做朋友的。”
杨简猜得出，崔云听到他的表白时有多震惊。那个人从来不允许自己的人生规划有半点偏差，又怎会受吴苏华影响？崔云用最决绝的方式回绝了他，表示厌恶，怀疑他染上不干净的病，并有意宣扬给宿舍其他人。
后面的事情，他基本上不用管了，流言蜚语的传播速度是无法想象的。
“上次我还书时看到你在宿舍，是因为崔云吗？”杨简小心地说。
“我想跟他道歉，以后还当朋友。”
杨简看他的眼神顿时有些同情了。
吴苏华也看出了这种同情，无奈地扯了扯嘴角，“你也觉得我这个想法太天真了吗？”
“那你现在住在哪里啊？”杨简转移了话题。吴苏华打扮得很时尚，看得出他是注重形象的，但他身上的服饰却也是普通学生花费得起的品牌。这个城市的房价那么高，租房的租金也贵的离谱，杨简是打算从现在开始就好好挣钱好好攒钱的，能花便宜的价钱住在宿舍里最好不过。
“跟我表哥一起住。”
杨简本能地意识到这个表哥来历不明十分可疑，不过他们只是认识的同学而已，也不好说什么，只看着吴苏华把自己沾满灰尘的枕头被子都团下来，扔在走廊拐角处的垃圾桶旁边，紧接着把床垫也拖过去。
“你不是打算全扔了吧？”杨简看着他的背影问。
“那边什么都有，这些东西也用不到了。”
吴苏华又从床底下拖了个箱子出来，把书本塞进去。
“好像没我的事了吧。”
“那个，”吴苏华有些不好意思地打开自己的柜子，指着里面的手提电脑说，“可以帮我把这个弄过去吗？不然我还得跑两趟。”
在那个年代，手提电脑还不是大学生人手一台的必用品，吴苏华的经济条件比杨简一开始的判断要好很多，杨简想，也许他未必住在什么表哥家，自己租房也是付得起房租的。
他走过去提起电脑，吴苏华双手抱着装满书的箱子，两人并排走下宿舍楼。
天色一直有些阴沉，这时候天空忽然飘起细小的雪花，杨简沉默地走着，偶尔看一眼前方被雪水濡湿的柏油路面。这一个月以来他把神经绷得太紧，无论做什么都有很强的目的性，虽然充实内心却难免茫然，仿佛是为了弥补过去的错误而重生，这样的人生又有什么意义呢？此刻不带任何动机地帮助同学时，杨简心中却渐渐明朗安定起来。

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3, the same boat ... just reborn encountered exam, Yang Jian busy this time, quickly go to the bank's automatic teller machine at the check account balances. This time he is actually not poor, but also after those days are not really, parents began to funding, then there is income from work, quickly spent all their savings after just lost source of income in the last three months, suddenly down and experience the feeling. In any case, he had to find a way to change the future. The first semester is about to end, the cost of living bank card depleted, Yang Jian secretly decided to change next semester absolute consumption habits. He received a good purse walking on the road back to the dorm, is thinking about how to cut costs, the phone suddenly rang. Yang Jian reached for the black and white screen, only the phone and SMS enabled mobile phone, see the familiar and unfamiliar words above. mom. Young Jane's mood is very complex. He had always been careful to circumvent strict father, mother, only to say they do not like a woman does not intend to get married, only to suffer an unexpected fierce opposition. He is an only child, I thought wrong no matter what will be forgiven, not knowing that everything is illusion. He also thought that even if unpleasant conversation with his mother calm, hysterically hard chair hit him, then pick up the broken chair leg could not beat his arms and back. He dodged, holding a piece of wood, heart guilt, but did not speak to apologize. This is not an apology can solve things, he had to let her accept the reality. She was sitting on the floor and burst into tears, crying attracted a father, regardless of indiscriminate gave him a slap in the face. "What did you do, put your mother into this gas?" Yang Jian has been no turning back, had to answer honestly, "Dad, I'm gay, I can not harm a woman married for life, you do not push me." Father long while did not speak, he propped his mother, turned and walked to the door together. Yang Jian heart burst of fear, a small Shengjiao sentence, "Dad, Mom." "When we did not hear anything." Father's voice hard and cold, the mother was no longer looking at him. They are proud of the son, has become the biggest shame of their lives, they can not forgive. "But it is true." Jane Young parents looking tottering back and gray hair, some said in despair. Huo father turned his head, "We have to force you? This is you force us! " " If you do insist on homosexuality, they do not enter the house." Mother suddenly raised his head, his eyes looked strong. Yang Jian less reaction moment, stared at the past. "If I had known, I would not put that you were born." Finally, to say that is the mother. Mother has always been a good strong man of honor, who did not want to cause a child to be so early, but still gave birth to Yang Jian at persuading the parties. Yang Jian out of elementary school subjects, high school contest to give the award, admitted to the key university entrance examination, high-paying jobs after graduation, in front of her family and friends are bragging. Yang Jian also finally realized that he is like a priceless vase, is worthless if there are cracks, loses its eligibility to be cherished and protected. That is the reality. Many years later his mother also received a phone call Yang Jian sometimes do not know how to face. But he is now seventeen years old, was a worldly college freshmen. Indulged rusty school is not a big mistake, but as long as the assigned level need to downgrade, the family will not know and will not interfere in. He finally answered the phone. "How the exam ah? What time holiday home?" The mother chatter sounded very cordial. Yang Jian this adaptation for a few seconds, thought, or answered, "Some exams, exam time being not to go home, the teacher introduced a part-time, not push." ​​Opposite the voices pause, he said "when did you start doing a part-time? money yet?" Yang Jian shocked, busy replied, "no shortage of teachers is to be fancy." "What ah? " " tutor." "Well, do finished just come back, I do not play outside a person crazy. " " I know. " Yang Jian hang up after one breath, winter forehead even layer of cold sweat. He did what the teacher recommended are the Internet to find part-time, looking at those winter vacation homework students only. Although the price is cheap, after all, stand to gain, and that he is not ready to go home mentally prepared. Dormitory people go about it, almost no one in the corridor, it looked deserted. Yang Jian was about to find keys, suddenly came across a man, also took the key to open the door in the next quarters. Yang Jian could not help more looked, surprised, "Wu Suhua? You're not moving out yet?" Wu Suhua did not reveal the expression of a guilty conscience, calm replied, "to move things." Yang Jian embarrassed smile, "I do not other means, is casually said. " Wu Suhua tilted his head to, also smiled at him. When Jane realized I was kind Yang, Wu Suhua has rarely appeared in front of their classmates, so Yang Jian was not deep impression on him. By this time, he felt he was not hard to get along with people. Wu Suhua stature slender, slightly higher than him, a pale face acne are not, very conspicuous golden hair, in such a cold winter feel very warm like. Unconsciously, Yang Jian had looked at him for a long time. "How curious?" Wu Suhua smile at him generously. "Ah, not." Yang Jian suddenly some confusion, so he did not want to expose themselves early, perhaps even imagined he can not go this way. "I just want you or need help." He just had an excuse. Wu Suhua touches bluntly, "Well, just more things." Yang Jian had followed him into the dorm, I saw the scene are not surprised. There are three bed finishing clean, above board even pick up all the mattresses, floating house with a pungent smell of disinfectant, even in the women's dormitory where all rare to see this. Wu Suhua pretending to be easy smile, "I move, they do not need the case." In addition bed apparently Wu Suhua, although also very neat, but off the top with a layer of dust, we can see has not been used for a long time too. "Yang Jian, thank you." He said suddenly. Yang Jian instantly react, he was grateful he did not hold anything against him. Whenever they are such a person can not be honest to survive in the sun. "Wu Suhua, although ask some abrupt, but I can not think, you did not seem to whom intercourse, then you do in the end is how to spread it?" Wu Suhua did not expect him this question, a bit shocked, but turn squinting smile at him. Young Jane was somewhat scared to see him, and quickly look away. "Are you afraid of me?" Wu Suhua self-deprecating like chuckled. "No." Yang Jian dead now regret their nosy. Wu Suhua noncommittal smile, "I really was not sick, you do not have to be afraid of." It sounds very sad, Yang Jian firmly shook his head, for a time could not say what words of comfort. "You do not wonder why my things will be transferred uproar it? I can tell you, because I Cuiyun confession, he regarded as a great insult." Wu Suhua said lightly. "He was trumpeted?" Yang Jane looked at him in shock, Cuiyun looks so good, would not make such a thing person. "It was not his fault," Wu Suhua a wry smile, "first came college, my relationship with him is best, is really put me as a friend." Yang Jian guess, when you hear his confession had崔云more shocked. The man never allowed his life planning the slightest deviation, how will that affect Wu Suhua? Cuiyun most decisive way rejected him, disgust, doubt that he contracted the disease is not clean, and intends to promote the dormitory others. Things behind, he basically do not control the propagation velocity of gossip is unthinkable. "Last time I saw you in the dormitory when the book is due崔云it?" Yang Jian said carefully. "I want to apologize to him, later also as a friend." Yang Jian see his eyes suddenly some sympathy. Wu Suhua also see this compassion, frustration mouth twitched, "Do you think my idea too naive it? " " Well, now you live ah?" Yang Jian changed the subject. Wu Suhua dressed very stylish, you can see he is image-conscious, but his body clothing but also ordinary students spend affordable brand. The city's housing prices so high, rents are ridiculously expensive rent, Yang Jian from now on is going to take a good saving of money, to spend cheap price, but the best to live in the dorm. "Live together with my cousin." Yang cousin Jane instinctively aware of this very suspicious of unknown origin, but they only know the students only, do not say anything, just looked at吴苏华his own dusty pillow quilt group down and thrown in the trash can next to the corner of the corridor, followed by the mattress also drag past. "You're not going to throw it whole?" Yang asked Jane looked at his back. "What there are, these things have less than a." Wu Suhua and from under the bed and dragged out of a box, go into the books. "I do not like it." "That," Wu Suhua embarrassed opened his chest, pointing to the inside of the laptop, "he said this can help me get over it? Otherwise, I had to run twice. " in those days, a laptop is not a university student manual will be supplies, much better than the judge economic conditions吴苏华beginning Yang Jian, Yang Jian thought maybe he might not live at home cousin what he had to pay the rent is from the rent. He went over to mention computers, Wu Suhua hands holding a box full of books, the two side by side down the dormitory. Has been some gloomy weather, this time the sky suddenly float tiny snowflakes, Yang Jian walked in silence, occasionally look at the front of the snow is wet tarmac. Since this month he put nerves stretched too tight, whatever you do have a strong sense of purpose, although the heart is inevitably substantial loss, as if to make up for past mistakes and rebirth, so that life, what is the point? When the moment without any motivation to help students, Yang Jian heart has gradually clear up and settle.