a good apple, I was fired from work because I was about to leave from work to send money to you. I finally got 120000 tbh, and the frenzy of happiness. affected by the separation of the previous sentence, I received my stay in Thailand. I did not have permission to leave from work so my boss said to me to go for two months. this is temporary. I did not get fired.the world in which we live is not treated us well. the two things that get me going are you and the kids. Now the world will take you away, leaving only the children. I can not think of how much pain and tears I have worked for you and your family have caused. I think you do not want to hear about how real my feelings for you are still. It does not comfort you,I do know. I think I'm going to treat my thoughts and depression in the hospital and I do not want to see anyone in a long time. it is also the best of my parents who are very angry about all of this. exclusive of deeds was: love. my parents trapped, to justify my actions. I did all full of love. Now I know that love left me. I no longer any hope of life.feel like I'm living dead. I can see only black. therefore it is better that I go to the hospital. if I do the other because I go to the children due. I think that I would hurt myself because I can not handle my pain inside me.
I humbly apologize to you all when I did not send the money that I promised. I got all the money together. in this situation, the money will not help.defy myself in my work and myself to defy my parents. I also involuntarily hurt you and your family. I involuntarily made you a laughing stock. I know it all. I can not describe how much I hate myself. I prefer to stay in the hospital until I get myself together. I fear hurting myself. my parents want me to go because they are far away.they are angry and worried at the same time. they are right, i want destroy myself.
I hope you have a good life, I hope the world treats you better this for years forward. I can not think of my clothes there in Thailand, or the money I sent my children's savings accounts. if you destroy the clothes and you do not care a bit so I've earned it. there is no feeling at all after all this time.I hope that the mourning period after you have a happy and successful in your life.
for the last time with love: Mika
i no have anyone else girlfriend here . i want you know. i get fired from work for 2 months so. no coming money. i go hospital or i die.