二十二、阿凯Katie知道我的左臂瘫痪后就变得和以前不一样了。但有什么

二十二、阿凯

Katie知道我的左臂瘫痪后就变得和以前不一样了。但有什么不同我又讲不出来，她依然那样温和但却总是躲避我的眼神，依然笑容常挂在嘴角却少了一丝真诚。我不知道她是还在误会我和sammi的关系还是对于我左臂的愧疚。看到她这个样子我真的很难受，几次想跟她敞开心扉的聊聊，总是看到她躲避的神情，我不知道她到底是怎么了。

留院观察几天后，我和katie一起出院了。除了左臂依然没知觉外，我觉得身体恢复的都很好。我也去找过katie的医师，询问了katie的情况，还好医生只是说身体虚弱多休息补充营养就好，并无大碍，我悬着的心也可以放下了。

左臂的瘫痪突然使我的生活变了样子，我感觉自己像个废人，事事都要麻烦katie。甚至一开始我连自己的衣服都穿不上，katie最初看着我眼眶红红的，然后走过来帮我打理。可是即使她就在我身边我还是觉得她距离我好远，很多次我都好想抱抱她给她安慰，却发现自己无论使多大力气左臂都还是沉在一边。一次一次的失败后，我终于接受我无法给katie一个完整的拥抱的事实。

“今天的理疗就到这里。其实要想尽快回复左臂的神经，除了理疗，家属还要经常给病人按摩，再配合药物治疗效果可能会好一点。”医生对着我们说。Katie站在我旁边默默的点点头，我看见她深锁的眉头，心抽搐的疼痛。

“Katie，还早我们逛逛吧。”从医院出来，我牵着katie，想跟她聊聊。她没出声，帮我拉拉衣服，算是默许了。“Katie，我康复之后，你一直都很不开心，我不知道你为什么会这样？是因为我的左臂吗？”她抬头看看我，黑色的眼眸里看不出一点神采，而被我紧握的手也试图挣脱开来。我扳过她的身子，与她面对面，看着她的眼睛。“老婆，你知道吗？比起恢复左臂的知觉我更想看着你每天开心。。”“可是，你终究是因为我……”我不想再看着她如此自责的神情，径直的吻下去，把她剩下的话淹没在这个热烈的吻里。这是出院快半个月以来我们第一次这样亲密。

可是……可是……她没有丝毫回应，像个木偶一样站在那里，我感觉得到她冰冷的唇，却再也感觉不到她为我跳动的心。为什么会这样？为什么你的瞳孔全是孤单和不信任，结了一层霜的眸子散发着寒气。我停下继续加深这个近乎“强迫”给你的吻，然后看见你的眼角渗出一滴、两滴、三滴直到他们成线滚落你的脸颊。

原来，在我身边的你，泪是热的，心是冷的……

我松开你，与你面对面站着。看着街角的红绿灯红了又绿、绿了又红。感觉时间像一双无情的手将你拉开我身边。我努力的挣扎、努力的呼喊却只看到你冷若冰霜的脸。

是不爱了，才会这般淡然？还是爱的太深，伤到无法修复？

Katie，不论是哪一种，现在在你身边的我既已给不了你幸福，那我宁愿放手。以旁观者的姿态还能再见你笑颜如花吗？

“我们回家吧……”我打破沉默，转身。第一次，在这样熙熙攘攘的街道，不知道该往哪里走。第一次，我不敢再去碰你的手。

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二十二、阿凯Katie知道我的左臂瘫痪后就变得和以前不一样了。但有什么不同我又讲不出来，她依然那样温和但却总是躲避我的眼神，依然笑容常挂在嘴角却少了一丝真诚。我不知道她是还在误会我和sammi的关系还是对于我左臂的愧疚。看到她这个样子我真的很难受，几次想跟她敞开心扉的聊聊，总是看到她躲避的神情，我不知道她到底是怎么了。留院观察几天后，我和katie一起出院了。除了左臂依然没知觉外，我觉得身体恢复的都很好。我也去找过katie的医师，询问了katie的情况，还好医生只是说身体虚弱多休息补充营养就好，并无大碍，我悬着的心也可以放下了。左臂的瘫痪突然使我的生活变了样子，我感觉自己像个废人，事事都要麻烦katie。甚至一开始我连自己的衣服都穿不上，katie最初看着我眼眶红红的，然后走过来帮我打理。可是即使她就在我身边我还是觉得她距离我好远，很多次我都好想抱抱她给她安慰，却发现自己无论使多大力气左臂都还是沉在一边。一次一次的失败后，我终于接受我无法给katie一个完整的拥抱的事实。“今天的理疗就到这里。其实要想尽快回复左臂的神经，除了理疗，家属还要经常给病人按摩，再配合药物治疗效果可能会好一点。”医生对着我们说。Katie站在我旁边默默的点点头，我看见她深锁的眉头，心抽搐的疼痛。"Katie, we stroll. "Getting out of the hospital, I took Katie, wanted to talk to her. She didn't make a sound, and helped me pull on clothes, acquiesced. "Katie, I recovered, you're always unhappy, I don't know why you would do that? Because my left arm right? "She looked up at me, black eyes can not see light, and I clenched my hands trying to break free from. I pull her body, with her face to face, the look in her eyes. "Dear, you know? Resume left arm than the perception I want to see you happy every day ... "" But you did because I ... ... "I don't want to look at her look of remorse, and Kiss, and drowned her in a passionate kiss. This is discharged faster we close for the first time in half a month.But ... ... But ... ... She did not respond at all, standing there like a puppet, I feel her cold lips, but you can feel her heart beats for me. Why is this happening? Why do your pupils are lonely and disbelief, end up with a layer of cream eye exudes coolness. I stop and continue to deepen this sort of "forced" give you a kiss, and then see your corner cut ooze a drop or two drop three drops until they rolled into lines of your face.Originally, beside me you tears are hot, the heart is cold ... ...I let go of you, and you stood face to face. Looking at the traffic light at the corner of red and green, green and red. Time feels like a pair of ruthless hands you with me. I tried to struggle, trying to call but can only see your cold face.是不爱了，才会这般淡然？还是爱的太深，伤到无法修复？Katie，不论是哪一种，现在在你身边的我既已给不了你幸福，那我宁愿放手。以旁观者的姿态还能再见你笑颜如花吗？“我们回家吧……”我打破沉默，转身。第一次，在这样熙熙攘攘的街道，不知道该往哪里走。第一次，我不敢再去碰你的手。

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XXII, Akai Katie know my left arm became paralyzed after not the same as before. But what is the difference I could not speak, she is still so gentle but always avoid my eyes, the smile still hanging in the mouth, but less often a hint of sincerity. I do not know if she is still misunderstood my relationship with my left arm for sammi or guilt. I see her like this really hard, she wants to open up a few times to talk to, always look to see her escape, I do not know her in the end is how. Observed a few days after leaving the hospital, the hospital and I katie together. In addition to his left arm still not perception, but I think the body recovery are good. I also went to see the doctors katie, katie asked about the situation, but fortunately the doctor just said to rest frail nutritional supplements like, does not matter, I'm hanging in the heart can be put down. Sudden paralysis of his left arm to make my life changed appearance, I felt like a basket case, everything should trouble katie. Even the beginning I do not even wear their clothes on, katie initially looked at my eyes were red, and then came to help me take care of. But even she was on my side I still think she is very far away from me, and many times I really want to give her a comforting hug her, but found himself so much effort regardless of the left arm are still submerged in the side. After a first failure, I finally accepted I can not give katie a full embrace of the facts. "Today's treatments on here. In fact, as soon as possible in order to reply to his left arm nerves, in addition to physical therapy, the families they often give patients a massage, combined with drug treatment may be a little better." The doctor said in front of us. Katie stood silently next to me nodded, and I saw her furrowed brow, the heart twitch of pain. "Katie, it's still early we stroll." Out of the hospital, I was holding katie, she wants to talk. She did not say anything, help me pulling clothes, be acquiesced. "Katie, after I recovered, you have been very unhappy, I do not know why would you do this? Because my left arm?" She looked up at me, black eyes I do not see that look, and was I clasped hands trying to break open. I Banguo her body, with her ​​face to face, he looked into her eyes. "Wife, you know? Compared to restore the left arm of perception I want to see you every day happy .." "But you eventually because I ......" I do not want to see her look so guilty, went straight kiss continues, the rest of her words drowned in the warm kiss. This is the hospital two weeks since the first time we fast so close. But ...... but ...... she is not the slightest response, like a puppet, like standing there, I felt her cold lips, but I could feel her heart beating. why will this happen? Why do your pupils are all alone and mistrust, a layer of frost eye exudes cold. I stopped to continue to deepen this almost "forced" to give you a kiss, and then see your eyes oozing drop, two drops, three drops until they rolled down your cheeks into line. It turned you around me, tears are hot, the heart is cold ...... I release you, and you stood face to face. Looking at red traffic lights on the corner and green, green and red. Time feel like a pair of ruthless hand will you pull me. I tried to struggle, trying to shout only to see your face frosty. It is not love, only so indifferent? Or love too, hurt beyond repair? Katie, no matter what kind, now around you Now that I can not give you happiness, then I would rather let go. Attitude spectator can see you smile blossoming it? "We go home ......" I broke the silence, and turned. The first time, in this bustling streets, not knowing where to go. The first time, I did not dare to touch your hand.

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Twenty-two,

Katie wants to know my left arm was paralyzed after it becomes not the same as before. But there is no difference I can not speak, she is still so mild but always to avoid my eyes, still smile often hung in the mouth but less sincere. I don't know if she is still misunderstand the relationship between me and Sammi for my left arm or guilt. See her this way I really very uncomfortable, a few times to open their hearts to talk, always see her face, I do not know what she is.

in hospital a few days later, Katie and I was discharged from the hospital. In addition to the left arm is still not perception, I think the body recovery is very good.I also went to Katie's doctor, asked the Katie situation, but fortunately, the doctor said that the body is weak and more rest to supplement nutrition is good, no big deal, I hung the heart can also be put down. Paralysis of the left arm

makes my life suddenly changed, I feel like a wreck, everything should be in trouble katie. Even the beginning I don't even have to wear clothes, Katie first looked at my eyes red, and then came to help me take care of. But even if she is on my side I still feel her far away from me, many times I want to embrace her to her comfort, but found that wherever they make much effort left arm are still sink in the side.After a failure, I finally accepted the fact that I was unable to give Katie a complete hug. "Today

here physiotherapy. Actually, want to reply as soon as possible left arm nerves, in addition to physiotherapy, families will often give patients, massage, coupled with the effect of drug treatment may be a bit better. " The doctor said to us. Katie stood beside me in a little bit of a head, I saw her deep lock of the brow, the pain of the heart. "Katie, before we go together." Come out of the hospital, I'm holding Katie, I want to talk to her. She didn't make a sound, to help me pull the clothes, is the default. "Katie, after I recovered,You have been very unhappy, I do not know why you are so? Because of my left arm?" She looked up and I have a look, do not see a bright black eyes, but I was also trying to hold hands away. I pulled her body, and she was in the face, looking at her eyes. "Wife, do you know? Than I want to look at the left arm of perception you happy every day.." "But you are because of me......" I don't want to look at her so much self reproach, the kiss of the straight, the rest of her words drowned in this warm kiss. This is the first time we've been so close to the hospital.

But...... But...... She did not respond, like a puppet standing there, I feel her cold lips, but I can no longer feel her beating heart. Why is this so? Why is your pupil alone and don't trust, frost eyes exudes coolness. I stopped to deepen this almost "forced" to your kiss and then see your canthus exuded a drop, two drops, three drops until they become line roll down your cheeks.

originally, you at my side, tears are hot, the heart is cold......

I release you, and you are standing face to face. Look at the traffic lights on the street.Feel time like a pair of ruthless hands will pull you apart. I tried to struggle, to cry only to see you face the stern manner.

is didn't love, will be so indifferent? Or love too deep, the injury can not be repaired?

Katie, no matter what kind, now in your side I can not give you happiness, then I would rather let go. Can you see the bystander attitude to smile? "Let's go home......" I break the silence, turn around. First, in the streets of such streams of people busily coming and going do not know where to go. For the first time, I'm not going to touch your hands again.