Jai, What I write now I will also translate in Thai and I hope the translation is the same in Thai so it is important you read both languages.
Why I write this is because I think you do not understand my heart and the strong feelings I have for you.
I do not understand why you think I would want to end our relationship all the time when I never have had these words in my mouth or text them to you. I do not even know why you would think that. Every time you say that to me you hurt my heart so very much. It is almost torture to me and I get very unhappy, upset and insecure.
Sometimes I wonder if you Jai want to end this relationship because you keep asking me this. If you do have doubts or not sure please tell me because I am coming to Thailand to take care of you and the baby and want to be with you all the time now and I am changing my life completely to be with you so please tell me ok.
Please tell me Jai if you have the same feelings for me, you want to share yours and the baby’s life with me and you want to be together with me.
I Richard do truly love you so much with all my heart and miss you so much I am in pain everyday and counting the days go by until we are together again on 12 September (18 days).
Please tell me what you want jai.
I love you. Richard